FROM YOUR LOVING DAUGHTER ......
It has taken me ages to glean all those things associated with you .... the more i think , more sad i become ..
i remember the parambulator that you bought for me ... and i as kid started to drive like a experinced chauffer".. you must have been so proud of me.....and as kid that was just a toy ... but today "it was your way to make me strong ...
i remembered the time when you fought for me ". for the injustice done to me like an advocate ... although i was wrong .... it was your way to show " that you loved me ....
i remember the time when you said " in my eyes both Boys and girls are equal ...." i thought am so lucky to have you
when i grew up to and went to my firts job " you were not happy taht i was leaving bihar ... but then you said ... that orissa is a good place .. that was enough for my motivation
so many yeras i stayed away , but still you were in my veins ... your love and affections runs insated of the blood...
in orissa , how thrilled you were to sea the ocans and how happy i was to see you in water ....
after you fell ill... my happiness , my laughter got strated dwindling ........
and i have not come to terms .... the 6th March 2007 ..... when you said " good bye" ....
for me you were immortal .... you have taught me what is death .... and life or both ...
" for the firts time i saw you so silent ; so low ; so calm and for the fisrt time i was also silent ...
only tears were speaking between us
i did not know what was happening ...... How strong you had made me
then you were taken for last rites and that was the end of my happiness ,,,,,,
still its flashes like things ,,,,,, still i think you are there ; ARE YOU
everything is around me
except you
everything is with me except you
and am still in antcipation thinking
that you will return
and enbrace me with same love and affcetion
i dont cry ; i only sob
for then god whispered to me
there is life after Death
good bye
